Destiny

Do you believe in destiny?

In the idea that nothing happens by chance; that every interaction is part of some colossal but minutely-calculated plan on how each person's life will pan out?

In the idea that you were born here, grew up there, studied in this school, took that first job, and met all those people, because Someone out there knows that's exactly the kind of background and experience you need for the kind of future you will live?

In the idea that people -- me, you, ALL of us -- in all our glorious complexity, intricacy, and uniqueness -- were individually designed, and custom-made in the way we are, to perfectly complement (or conflict with) another hand-crafted person on this earth?

In the idea that I'm right here, right now, the person that I am, because that's just how it is meant to be?

There's truly something tingly, romantic, and awesome in the idea of fate. Yet it can also sound dead-end and tragic, like navigating a car with no control of the steering wheel.

about today

a day made complete by...

1. time spent with mom, dad, ate, kuya, trina, kala, kayin, and loula

2. pitching in for a few hours at the cafe

3. a few precious hours with miel, who was away for three days

4. and a relaxed time watching the first episode of glee season 2 and 'funny people' on hbo

#1 and #4 are rare, which make them a real treat.

having all four happen in one day makes it awesome.

wasn't even planning to watch tv tonight, and i'm so glad to have caught nice shows. though i don't know if 'funny people' left me happy....it kinda left me with mixed emotions and things to think about :-/

but still, there's much to smile for. good night!

muni-muni

tinamaan ako ng katamaran ngayong araw. magka-climb dapat ako, pero pinili kong bumalandra sa sofa ng nanay ko para humabol sa "uninterrupted sleep" na tatlong gabi ko ng ninanamnam. 

gabi-gabi ko kasing inaasam na makakuha ng 10 oras na tulog...at sa nakaraang dalawang linggo -- kung saan bumisita ako sa mga lungsod ng cagayan de oro, butuan, at general santos -- panay 5 oras na tulog lang ang nakukuha ko. 

kaya siguro ako hinila ng sofa ngayong araw. sabi ng katawan ko, "ayan, bawiin mo na ang sampung oras na pinapangarap mo!"

pero tila hindi ko pa rin nakamit ang pangarap na ito, dahil kahit gusto ng katawan kong humiga, ang utak ko naman ay tuluyang nagiisip, nagtitimbang, nagmumuni-muni. 

HAY.

ngunit sa kabila ng pagkabigo, kung tutuusin, gumaan din ang loob ko sa lahat ng planong nabuo habang ako'y nakahiga at nakatitig sa kisame. kasi, sa di-karaniwang pagkakataon, pinabayaan ko din ang sarili ko na managinip ng gising. mula sa mga personal na pangarap, hanggang sa mga pangarap ko para sa aking pamilya. kahit pambihira, hinayaan ko ang utak ko na lumipad.

sabi nga nila, DREAM BIG. kaya ayun, nanaginip ako. ng marami. ngayon, ang problema na lang ay kung papaano sila gagawing totoo. buti na lang, mahilig ako sa goal-setting. 

uumpisahan ko sa training regimen ngayong linggo.....and all the rest will follow. ;-)